though u summon the dead you cannot come as a child into your fathers house

my final exams

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 13:41:40 GMT

i think i am putting off my study through menial tasks such as ... updating my live journal, for the second time today.

i wish i could turn my motivation levels up. all that self talk doesnt work as it is plainly obvious to me that i only have 5 days left only 19 hours left of this course.

however, im deciding to go to bed now.. 9.40 thats a good time to me!

gooodnight anyone out there who is my friend.. all those 4 people1!!! yeah i thank you for being my live journal friends!
peace out
stay fresh

alex

my first live journal update since i have been re born

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 09:49:23 GMT

i deleted my account 2 days ago, i got shitted off with lots of things, but im back now and i have decided to start writing again.

in two days i have 6 exams. then im free to do anything i want for 6 months. for the past 20 weeks/6 months i have not seen so many people that i really should have tried to make some time for. i think i have put to much importance on this uni thing. i really hope that i havent fucked up my friendships with people that are very important to me.
the list isnt very long... (from all saints anyway)

sarah g, cliffy, arni and bek, hayley

the bad thing is that all these people have tried to contact me and work out a time to see me. and it hasnt worked out. this will soon change. i need to learn to 'time manage' and realise getting into law isnt everything. i dont even know if that is waht i want to do. and it sucks that everyone i know, associates my ambitions to my law degree, which i havent started yet... not sure if i will.. or can for that matter

even though i have missed out on so many things, due to this bridging thing. i have made some awsome new friends, namely anne and beth.. these guys are two of the funniest people i know and i hope i stay in contact with for a very long time.

i have also learnt that there is actually people out there that are real, that u dont have to spend so much effort trying to work out and u just truely trust the moment u meet them. i must say will has met the greatest people, he has the greatest, funniest, trustworthy and loving friends.

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 09:31:08 GMT

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 04:00:04 GMT

i am in class now doing an exam ahh suck my balls

im going to die

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 23:52:47 GMT

AN UPDATE TO WILL

dont fall in love with americans

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 11:53:21 GMT

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	warm
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	awakening my heart
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	amazing
Your love is...	eternal

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 07:33:34 GMT

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	breath taking
Your hugs are...	warm
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	eternal

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 14:06:37 GMT

i just got home from work and no one is home. i am having so many low days at the moment. minutes seem to drag on meaninglessly. i still have motivation to study and once i get things started il proabably get half way through then i move on to something else. im tired and i have no energy to look after myself or pride myself in what i look like. which is strange as i love my clothes and eyeshadow. i have so many differant personalities and differant moods. and i treasure that i just think that my rollercoaster life has got down to the ground and heaving itself along. il soon be up and running again.

im going to go have a shower and wash my feelings away
my love goes out to you

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 09:10:27 GMT

i like getting the ear wax out ofmy ears with my little finger, taking bad jokes to far, playing practicle jokes on people, eating pasta, laughing, squeezing pimples,pretending im serious when im not, the word intense, japanese clothes, christina aguilera, my past lover tim tam, me, i love puss and the dirt under my toe nails it make me feel wonderfull, i love my friends, i love ella i love willyenium, the fact that BM stands for bowl movement its wicked

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 05:50:00 GMT

If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance, if you can't dance, if you can't dance to this you can't do
Nothing for me baby.
If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance, if you can't dance, if you can't dance to this you can't do
Nothing for me baby.
Now we got the flavour, the bad behaviour
The rhythm the melody, the juice for you to savour,
Rockin and vibin somebody is jivin,
You need to take a tip, sort it out,
Get a grip whenever I go out wherever it may be.
There never is a keanu but a dweeb lookin
At me but then even if I did score
He's a loser on the dance floor,
Take a deep breath count 1 2 3.
Even when his eyes met mine his
Slamming moves were out of time.
Can't you just feel the groove why don't
You move it's easy can't you see take
My hands and dance with me.
If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance, if you can't dance, if you can't dance to this you can't do
Nothing for me baby.
If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance, if you can't dance, if you can't dance to this you can't do
Nothing for me baby.

[Spanish Rap]

If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance to this you can't do
Nothing for me baby.
If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance, if you can't dance
If you can't dance to this you can't do
Nothing for me baby.

my thoughts of the day

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 05:42:00 GMT

As one inept comrade whispered to the other..
And birds shall fly.
I find meaning in this idiom as
my sentiments provoke melancholy
despondency and ecstasy at the same time
which leaves me in a sagacity of deliriousness…
this is what I ponder

i used a red filter if anyone is interested in how i created this creation of life and living exisitance

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 09:41:10 GMT

SARAH IS HERE

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 02:59:59 GMT

i think i might have glandular fever.. beth had it and now all my glands are swallen in my neck and it hurts quite a bit. il go to the doctor this weekend. i had planns to go out wiht clifford tonight to leaderville but she bailed as she has a test. which is fine coz i have bailed on her so mnay times. now i just dont have anything to do... i should probably study or write more. i dont understand this concept of a live journal... on one hand you are writing emails to particuar groups of friends. which do not go to them directly anyway and there is no way of knowing that they will end up reading the post that u wanted them to read. then on the other hand u are writing a journal. which in reality is normaly something which people aim to keep private and use to unleash their inermost thoughts. what the fuck is this then. ahhh i need to blow my nose

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 01:56:39 GMT

i like nachos allot
i like will allot
i like dogs but my doggy is in doggy heaven and i miss him
i miss his smell
i miss his soft ears
i miss his soft chubby belly
i miss his pleading and loving dark eyes
i miss his little legs and warm paws
i miss his talking noises
i miss his snoring
i miss his cuddles
i miss his licks
i miss his howls
i miss his warmth
i miss coming home to him
i miss waking up to him
i miss missing him and being able to just go and cuddle him
i miss tim tam allot

my first real entry.... it is bad i didnt know what i was doing... im sure i will get better

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 01:44:24 GMT

i am not quite sure how to use this site and what the purpose of my typing in here is but i will anyway as will is in america and this is one way i can keep intouch with him it has been 3 days now and it is weird to have time to myself .... i used to see him everyday and now i cant just go over and do anything at his house with him. i am finaly catching up with old friends like cliffod arni bek and jane... maybe nick too. i hope they dont feel like i only spend time with them when i cant see will im pretty sure that isnt the case. i am soposed to be studying atm im at uni but its a computing exel exam and its hard and i dont know how to do it but yeah im sure it will be wicked.

i shall write again.
i love the world

i like chickens

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 09:36:10 GMT

guess what im bored